Before and After

I have been thinking a lot about whether to do this before and after. I am sure that I am going to put it on my about page as well but I wanted to have a post about it here since I just recently made it instead of making it in the beginning of the blog. There are a lot of things that come to mind and can be described in more than just an about me kind of page.  So without further ado here is a little background into my life of weight loss and fitness.

I was always the chubby girl. When I was in elementary school, as most kids were, I was teased for a multitude of reasons. I was a larger girl around that age, and it was a feature the kids liked to remind me about daily. This was rough because it lasted for a lot of elementary school and middle school. I had kind of a wacky home life as well, so I took it a little more personally than other kids might. I can still remember kids calling me purple cow when I dyed my hair purple in middle school. I thought I had wanted to be different, but really I just wanted the attention. Even though I was harassed I decided to take up as many sports and clubs as I could in 6th grade. I loved playing volleyball and basketball even if I wasn’t the fastest girl.

In 7th grade I broke my knee cap playing around at a friends house. I had to have surgery to take out the piece of my knee cap that broke, which put me in a knee brace for several months. I actually lost weight during this time because I was unable to get to the kitchen on my own. I remember being excited to wear a smaller size even though my knee was broken. This made the next few years difficult as I still wanted to be active. I tried to take up swing dancing in 8th grade, thinking  I could handle the exercise, but when I fell in front of the whole class I was reminded that it would not be as easy to be active.

Freshman year I tried out for the cheer leading squad, but I lived in a pretty high demand area and I did not make the cut; I was devastated. I was struggling on the inside because I wanted to be liked, I associated that with being thin. Everything I tried to do to be active was blowing up in my face. Not to mention the whole cheerleader popularity thing, I figured now I would never be in with the cool kids. So instead of trying to be with them I completely rebelled, I started hanging out with a different crowd. One that would go smoke behind the bleachers and made fun of the jocks and cheerleaders. I let it get to me, and I didn’t care what anyone thought. I started taking diet pills to lose the weight,  and at the time I thought it was the greatest thing ever. The weight came back when I stopped taking diet pills.

When I went to college was when the weight really came on. I had always fluctuated, and yes I was never 300 pounds but I was unhappy and unhealthy nevertheless. I partied and ate way to much food throughout my college life.  I worked on video production at school, so my last semester was lots of wrap parties and bars to celebrate new shows. I got up to 195lbs

When I graduated that year I wanted to make a change. I didn’t want to struggle finding clothes that fit and constantly feeling bad about myself. I remember I bought a pair of jeans in a size 14 that were snug, and that was when I decided I don’t want to be over weight anymore. I started calorie counting on my own and the first 15 pounds were coming off somewhat easily. The last 15 were a lot harder. I joined weight watchers to lose the last 15 and I was really close to getting to the weight I wanted to be, maybe the weight I wanted to be was crazy but I was close. I started triathlon training and now I am back to 15 pounds above where I want to be. but let me tell you I think I look a lot better now.

I know the last half of my journey is going to be a lot harder. I have been struggling for 2 years at this and I know it is going to take even longer. I am trying to focus on just being happy and healthy and let the rest fall into place. So far so good.

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One Comment to “Before and After”

  1. Hey Miss! Thx for sharing! That took a lot of guts to sit down and reflect AND write it down for everyone to see.

    I wish I was brave enough to write down my “eating issues” for the world to see. Super proud of you!

    xoxo

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